Daddy In Memory (Part 5)

ISNIN - 15 FEB 2016

alhamdulillah.. petang tu adik i yang kerja kat area puncak perdana pon balik..
sempat la dia tengok daddy..
rumah masih ramai...
orang keep in and out... most yang stay inside is my kazen.

malam tu once again daddy sakit...
kali ni memang macam daddy nak say "bye-bye"
daddy kumpulkan adik beradik semua..
i mean anak-anak dia..tapi sebenarnya anak-anak laki dia je yang duduk depan dia masa tu..
anak-anak perempuan daddy bz kat dapur buat air..
sekali i terdengar amanat ddy bagi kat adik laki yang besar tu..
masa tu dah dengar adik laki tu nangis nangis..

after siap buat air tu duduk dekat dengan daddy..
baru duduk 3-4 saat je air mata dah meleleh...
dengar pula adik nangis...
dengan nenek sok sek sok sek..

nenek cakap "mak... dah ampunkan ko dah nus, mak dah halalkan semuanya dah"
i...  soksek soksek lagi.
daddy ... "tak nak minta maaf kat daddy ke?"
adik2 i depan daddy salam daddy  sambil sok sek sok sek..
i.... soksek soksek juga.
daddy salam dengan mummy.. "aku banyak salah dengan kau..."
i... makin kuat soksek soksek..
daddy " nak tido... nak pergi terus"
i... meraung dahhh.....

daddy baring kat tilam... kebetulan baring tu landing betol depan i..
so.. urut2 daddy...
kazen ajar daddy mengucap... kami yang lain.. sok sek sok sek..

kazen : asyhadu alla ilaha illallah, waasyhadu anna muhammadar rasulullah.

daddy : asyhadu alla ilaha illallah, wa asyhadu anna muhammadar rasulullah.. salam akhir

then ddy ckp "boleh tak klu anak-anak aku ajar ngucap"
so... kami pon amik la sorang sikit ajar ngucap..
lama.. lama lepas tu...
daddy "aku dah banyak kali bagi salam.. nape kau tak sambut"
and tanpa sedar... i tampar bahu daddy...

then urut urut daddy... sambil tu ajar daddy ngucap..
then daddy tido... tapi nadi n nafas masih ada...
kazen mula start balik...
i pon naik bilik sekejap.. konon nak lelap sekejap..


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Love, 

The Dazzling Ladybie

Daddy In Memory (Part 4)

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ISNIN - 15 FEB 2016

around 4pm.. daddy tetiba tak menyahut.
nenek panggil x sahut.. kazen panggil tak sahut..
but still berdenyut nadi dia..
so.. my kazen pon start la ajar daddy mengucap..

time tu sekali lagi i nangis...
entahlah.. mebi i cengeng kot bila masuk bab orang yang kita sayang..
lagi2 i jaga daddy sejak daddy sakit..
mummy dah panggil my brother tu balik.. bgtau daddy tenat & nazak.

rumah dah start pasang dengan ayat2 quran lebih lebih lagi surah yasin sejak malam tadi..
dekat je dengan daddy kitorang letak.
my kazen pon msej adik beradik dia yang dekat..
dah start panggil sedara dekat datang..

alhamdulillah.. x lama lepas daddy x menyahut tadi tu...
daddy sedar.... and minta air..
tapi... xlama pon daddy telan... after that daddy muntah balik...

rumah hari ni... ramai datang... lepas sorang.. sorang datang..
ziarah daddy... mebi this is the last day..
daddy dah x kenal orang.. dah x cam siapa..
so.. bila orang masuk rumah.. duduk dengan dia...
daddy akan tanya siapa.. i dengan mummy akan jawab..
sesekali daddy akan menangis... sesekali daddy akan marah diri dia..
sesekali daddy akan merintih..
yang paling sayat hati.. daddy x kenal jiran sebelah rumah yang dah lama kami berjiran..
daddy nangis bila kami bagitau nama uncle osman...
i pon ikut sama nangis..

sekali lagi hati terdetik....
masa daddy dah x lama.. Allahu Akbar

Love, 

The Dazzling Ladybie

Daddy In Memory (Part 3)

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ISNIN - 15 FEB 2016

dalam tengah hari tu once again daddy meracau...
panggil panggil nenek.... weols bagitau nenek ontheway..
daddy panggil mokde pula...ngadu dia sakit..

just few minutes before nenek arrive home,  ada bell..
i ingat nenek dah sampai.. rupanya kawan kerja daddy..
so.. jemput dia masok..
katanya dari hospital..buat check up.. and datang nak lawat daddy..
ekceli daddy memang sakit and x bape sihat..
just daddy punya condition ok aje sebelum ni..
so bila kawan daddy (uncle ramlan) ni tengok daddy.. terus diam dia.
dia xcakap banyak teruk usap2 daddy.. urut2 daddy..
tangan dia xlepas dari badan or kaki daddy...
kalau lepas pon sekejap je.. then capai balik..
sampai la time dia nak balik.. he stick near to daddy..

nenek sampai rumah just a few minutes dari uncle ramlan sampai..
sampai2 je ... nenek panggil daddy.
nenek duduk dekat dengan daddy...  panggil daddy..
try nak borak dengan daddy..
haaa... bab yang ni la air mata macam air terjun...
macam dah x boleh beza dah mana satu air mata.. mne air terjun..
idung pon dah start sok sek sok sek..
sebak ok..

dalam banyak banyak kawan yang i kongsi pasal keadaan daddy sekarang pon just Cik Fatin je..
sebab dia yang paling n paling rapat dengan i..
so... kita selesa nak share dengan dia. walaupon dia xde depan mata..
yang lain fon layan mesej from kazen yang stay near klang valley.

masa tu dah memang terdetik dalam hati..
and i ade mesej Cik Fatin bende ni..
"i just hope... andai benar ini sakaratulmaut bagi daddy, i hope ia dipermudahkan bagi Daddy"


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Love, 

The Dazzling Ladybie

Daddy In Memory (Part 2)

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ISNIN - 15 FEB 2016

tadi dapat tido around 6.30 am..
ingatkan dapat tido lama la sikit..
konon konon dapat refresh diri sikit..
rupanya... just dapat 3 jam je tido.
pkol 9.30 dah terjaga.. sebab daddy jerit..
kusss semangat.. terkezuttt kita awak..

sedar ari tido je terus terduduk..
nasib baik la ingat lagi ape yang jadi sebelom tido..
kalau tak memang macam orang bodo la i ni kan...  terkejut punya pasal.

before i terlelap tu... i ingat daddy just sakit biasa-biasa..
just sakit x sedap badan.. walaupon di mata kasar i boleh nampak tanda2 bukan bukan..
hati kita boleh rasa...
just maybe i ni selfish... so.. i nak playsafe...
i nak think positif.. i xnak daddy pergi..

i ada mesej angah.. bagitau dia pasal daddy..
niat hati just nak ngadu.. nak luah perasaan.
as kita x sedap hati kan... x senang hati tengok daddy..
last2 angah ajak gaduh....
huhh.. memang tak la reply dah..
buat hati bengkek aje..

pagi ni daddy masih meracau lagi..
cuma daddy tak seaktif malam tadi..
penat agaknya...
mummy pon memonteng kerja.. nasib baik juga la.. kalau tak mati kutu nak buat ape..

hari ni daddy meracau mintak nenek lagi..
nenek masih kat kampung...  so kami kena marah..
weols redha je la..

then.. daddy cakap kat i..
"kakak... tu sape datang tu.. tu suruh posmen tu masuk"
i tengok pintu.. xde ape pon...
celah mana plak posmen.. daddy ni menakutkan...

daddy kata lagi...
"kakak... kirim salam kat muhamad... tu pakai surat."
sekali lagi i macam blur...
pakai surat??? alamat dia ape..
biasa bukan main fon je ke???

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Love, 

The Dazzling Ladybie

Daddy in Memory (Part 1)

AHAD - 14 FEB 2016

around 2 am tadi... mummy call..
(biasa memang mummy or daddy call kalau ade hal.. senang xyah jerit2)
then kebetulan x tido lagi.. jadi turun laa..
bila turun tengok daddy bising.. ngomel ape ntah.

then mummy cakap..
"kakak.. call poji (kazen) suh bawak nenek datang sini esok"
as anak yang baik.. i pon call la my kazen tu.
pakai no mummy... heheh..  mummy? redha aje.

then... after call tu dengar daddy start meracau racau..
cakap ape ntah...
then jerit panggil nenek..
jerit panggil mok de (my aunt)
jerit kata sakit..

malam tu daddy agak aktif meracau..
30 seconds bising... 30 seconds diam..
then start 30 seconds bising.. 30 seconds diam...
mummy tido... tapi x jauh la..
i pula mummy suh jagakan daddy... takut2 ape jadi.

i pulak surrender around 6.30 am
lepas subuh tu memang tak terdaya dah..
so... i pon lelap... mummy plak jaga..
tapi i tdo kat bawah...
so.. if anything, i dekat.. boleh dengar..

i sambung at next entri.

Love, 

The Dazzling Ladybie

Vallentines Day

Vallentine's Day???
hahaha...
orang dok sebok sambut vallentine's day ni..
i pon sama sibok juga..
cuma i sibuk dengan dating & upacara makan makan wif my lovely bff
macam biasa lah.. upacara #gengjalanjalancarimakan dengan Cik Fatin..

nanti bila free sikit i update review pasal tempat makan tu eh..
now bz skit...
tungguuuu

Love, 

The Dazzling Ladybie

KDrama: She Was Pretty

SHE WAS PRETTY

SYNOPSIS

A romantic comedy about two past acquaintances who meet again after they've gone through a reversal of fortunes and appearances, set in the backdrop of a fashion magazine's publishing office. 

Kim Hye-jin was a very pretty girl from a rich family. After her family's publishing company went bankrupt, she experienced hardships then lost her beauty too. Ji Sung-joon was an unattractive boy with low self-esteem, but grows up as a handsome and successful editor. The two decided to meet again as adults, but Sung-joon was unable to recognize Hye-jin. Ashamed to meet her first love and ruin his perception of her, Hye-jin asks her attractive best friend, Ha-ri, to appear in her place. 

Things, however, soon get complicated as Hye-jin was assigned to work at The Most magazine publishing office where Sung-joon is the deputy chief editor. He openly mistreats and belittles her for her clumsy nature, not knowing that she was his real childhood friend. Ha-ri also continues to meet Sung-joon, and soon develops feelings for him. On the other hand, Hye-jin finds a good friend in her workplace, Shin-hyuk, who slowly falls in love with her.

CAST

• Hwang Jung-eum as Kim Hye-jin 
• Jung Da-bin as young Hye-jin

An intern in the administration section before being appointed as junior editor. She used to be a beautiful, wealthy, and smart girl, but lost everything. Embarrassed at her failures in life, she asked her best friend Ha-ri, to meet with her first love Sung-joon, using her name. She thought that would be the end of her fate with Sung-joon, but turns out it's only the beginning of her nightmare, as he then becomes her boss. Despite the misfortunes, she still strives to do her best.

• Park Seo-joon as Ji Sung-joon 
• Yang Han-yeol as young Sung-joon 

The youngest deputy chief editor in Korea. Stubborn and arrogant but also brilliant in his work. Contrary to Kim Hye-jin, he was unattractive and shy but grows up to become handsome and successful. Immediately after returning to Korea, he contacted his first love, Hye-jin. He and Kim hye-jin were each other’s best friend when they were younger. He was traumatized as a child when his mother had died in a car accident on a rainy day. After that, on days that it rained, he was unable to carry out his daily activities, that is, until he had met Hye-jin. He ends up falling for her even when he didn’t recognize that she was his childhood friend and first love.

• Go Joon-hee as Min Ha-ri 
• Lee Ja-in as young Ha-ri

A hotelier. She is Hye-jin's best friend and roommate. A beautiful and stylish woman with good personality. She follows Hye-jin’s words and tries to break up with Sung-joon quickly and cleanly by saying that she had to leave for England to study. She ends up being caught. While continuing to pretend to be Hye-jin, she ends up falling for him. Fearing that her relationship with her best friend might be compromised, she tries several times to tell him the truth only to fail in the end and having Hye-jin find out first.

•  Choi Siwon as Kim Shin-hyuk 
• A senior feature editor. He is generally a free-spirited, fair, and straightforward man but with mysterious identity. He is Hye-jin's direct supervisor at work, and they developed a close relationship. He calls Hye-jin Jackson because when he first met her she was wearing white socks like Michael Jackson. He ends up falling for her even before her beauty transformation. He found out about her relationship with the deputy chief editor, Sung-joon, one day when she was drunk. He also came to find out about how her friend Ha-ri was impersonating Sung-joon’s first love and persuaded her to come clean. He didn’t want him and Hye-jin to be just friends but in the end, he decided that it was better to have her as a friend than not at all.